'Pardon me, but are you a Gundam?' 'I AM A GUNDAM!!!' by Kara
Sunday, May 31, 2009 at 11:42 AM

Busy day today.

I will say, it's wonderful to know that people wish to use and abuse my talents. Some are people who are paying me. Some are friends that know it's something I'll do for fun. Some are friends I'm exchanging awesome favours with. Some have embarrassing photos of me. Whatever the reason, I'm actually happy to be hitting a busy patch that benefits others without hobbling myself.

Sounds like a weird thing to say. I don't know. I had this discussion, sort of, with a family member the other day. If I'm going to be doing something -- whether it be a random favour, something charity-related, etc. -- I'm only particularly into it if I know it's something I do well, or if it's at least something I'm (apparently) respected for. It's not that I don't enjoy doing other things. It's just that I feel out of my element. If I'm going to be doing something positive, at least let me do something positive that I know I'm good at and is going to do fantastic things for all involved.

Or at least passable things.

But then comes the level of nervousness where I realise someone has just put a lot of faith in me to do something they believe I can do right and well. So I'm not allowed to screw up. Unfortunately, at a show recently I did make a proper balls-up of my part of it. That makes me feel worse than just about anything. I could screw up something for myself and get over it, but when I know it involved other people ...

I have no idea where I'm going with this. I think I was talking about being busy today. Oh, right, yes. Basically someone's asked me to record something for them that they have informed me I can do absolutely perfectly, ditto writing something for someone else. I guess I've gotta get my head into a zone where I agree with them.

If you have been, fud.